Descisions

all i want
sometimes

is to just lie down
with a blank mind
and not have to think

not have to know
not have to try
not have to be

Just rest

Decisions.

like clouds
hanging
in the sky

you know they are there
you know they are waiting

but something
makes you put them off

you know they need to be made
but the sunlight on the carpet
distracts you

the drop of water
on the window
entrances you

the dog barking
next door
makes you forget

Decisions.
Leave them one more day.
And then another.

all you want to do

Is Forget.

Time

Time
it never takes
a break
it never stops for a
rest
it is relentless
stealing life
whats the point?
whats the meaning?
new things become old
yet they are
so important.
doctors save lives
for what?
so that we will live
for what?
for life.
for emotion
for love, for happiness
for laughter, for anger,
for tears, for family,
for friends
for passion.
for life.
Just one more day.
thats all anyone wants
just one more minute
one more second
to be alive
fear.
is why we want to live
we know what life is
but what is death?
the unknown
it scares us
and life can be beautiful
why?
do the people who love life
the most--
why?
are they the ones that
don't get to live it?
Time.
You want to kill it
to crush it
to stop it
but it is like the mist
ever present
and never destroyed.
Time
it gives you love
but it does not give you
that one last minute.

Windmill

A windmill
spins in a circle
ever turning
ever moving
it has a purpose
it has a place
it has a name
i have a name
i don't have a purpose
i don't have a place
i don't even turn
i am stuck

Nothing

Find a place where you fit
people tell me
What do you want
people ask me
I don't know
but
how do i know
i ask
where i look
i ask
to find that one
place where i fit
where only i fit
where only i belong
the only place
i want to be

around you go
the same
thing
every day
others
change the world
know their place
their calling
how
i ask
do i find mine?